I’ve had many fears in my life. In fact, I used to live in fear. I don’t like to dwell on it because I feel that fear breeds fear, so when I think about my fears the old ones just come flooding back. I had a break through in my life and I’m not as fearful as I used to be. At least not in the same way. My fears before used to be dark and spiritual, but now they are practical.
I actually had a brush with those fears just last night. There’s a lot more to the story than I’m going to share, because it touches on a personal issue I’m working through in my life.
One of my greatest fears right now is failing my children. I know that most Moms probably have this fear in some form or another, but that doesn’t make it any easier or any less real.
I fear that I won’t be the best example of a Christian so that they can live their lives for Christ.
I fear that my emotions will get in the way of my relationship with my sons.
I fear that I’m not teaching them the things I should be.
I fear that I won’t be able to have another child.
There is so much more to these fears than I can share, but they haunt me so often. I pray every day that I can change, be better and trust God more. I do my best to learn and grow so I can teach my children even more. I know God can calm my fears, but I’m only human….I still have them.
I’m looking forward to starting Angie’s book and participating in the book club so that maybe I can learn to put some fears to rest.